I realized @ 20-21.11.08.................

                               I will never forget this day of my life.

                               I realized today a number of realities.

what happend today is that we got informaion that we have to select TAP (Training and Placement) member from among our stream,computer science! In the beginning i said to my best friends Pandey,Pj and Rj that i am not going to nominate!My friends told me that u can do well as TAP member and u can perform uncomparable for the same.yes i am so lucky that i have friends who feel so confident on me.But the situation outside was different(ofcourse thre's always some surprise keeps awaiting for you).Five students nominated!!No doubt every nominee was someone's frnds.

               I was not the first choice for many of them.During the discussions i was given wrong remarks about my chances of emerging as a winner by few of my batch mates!(soon we found they lied!!)this is called politics my friend!!!!!!!!!!

The same group of my batch mates have no problem with their loss but they were having problems with my win,they had problem with my group.Y dont our technocrats understand that 

making someone tap is not just the matter of frienship rather its the matter of being capable,of being active,of being a good person,of being a real Technocrat.

                                           I will never forget how much effort my three friends gave to provide them with good results in the name of me.I will never forget how we have discussed whole night about our chances,about my support and about future by making a capable TAP.

                       yes results came and to no surprise i got out of the race.But i got all the votes which i have expected from the real techies having a liberal thinking!

But what i feel really is

                     "I was better than the people's who got selected and could have served well".

My chances are gone but this question will always revovle in my mind:

Why our good friends about whom neither me nor my group have thought of doing any harm are opposing us?

Why does people does not think by rising above personal matters while selecting someone for responsible job???

Why does people cant see any one happy?Is it a crime to be happy?? 

Why does my friend rj,pandey and pj helped me till the end?why they are different from others?

Although i lost but i have learned a very big lesson out of it!and the questions aroused in my mind made me realize numerous facts,

I realized how cunning is the world.

I realize how someone's happiness can become curse for other's.

I realized what real friends are!

I realized i am gifted with 3 friends who are like real brother's.

And eventually i realised........"What is Life".

               

                "Defeat is not the worst of failures.Not to have tried is the true failure"

                                                     

God came and repaired my notebook (Laptop)..............

This great event started when i went to my home for deepawali.Yes i was in cloud nine to be in home after long time.So i prepared for my vacation by taking entertainment stuffs of nearly 130 Gb which includes movies,music and ofcourse few educational stuffs(??Does it include sex educational stuffs??!!!!kidding!!!!).Also i took loads of movies as per demand of my brother(an MBBS Dude) who is fanatic for movies.I reached home on 25th of october.Me and my brother enjoyed to the fullest for two 

days(25 and 26).But who was knowing about the tragedy going to happen the other day!!!what happend on 27th is that my lappy got strucked with the wall very gently and there after my lappy stopped giving any display.And this slight strucking of my lappy brought many things with it::

-->It made my vacation a bit boring...

-->It made me prepone my reservation from 6th to 3th of november...

-->It has planned to empty my pocket with 2000 bucks...

                          During my remaining days in home i tried my very best to make it run but all the efforts proved worthless.Days passed and i came back to my college.There i enquired with other guys who have faced this sort of problems,who further told me about their expense of minimum 2000/- for it.Now i thought no one can prevent me from losing the money....... Now on 5th of november i decided to go to service centre with my computer which is running without display.Again i at 12.30 pm i tried to connect my notebook with external monitor but there also i got no

display.All the efforts which i have made gave no fruitful result.I was about to

give up trying but a voice echoed in my mind which said something.After 

listening to which i feel like trying it again.

                             Finally i took name of god and my parents and gave my final try and what happend shocked me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yes my lappy started giving the display.How can this be possible??How the computer worked after 10 days??What actually was the problem?? I dont know all this...So in my way i am saying that god came and repaired my laptop.May be he was kind on me as i have the best parents and true beloved!!!!!!! 

Whatever be the reason,i thank lord for what he has done for me this time 

and hitherto what he had done for me. And u know what that voice said,it said.......

            "There's always a bright sun waiting behind clouds of despair"